It’s coming up and I’m going to be as single as ever. Woo. I’ve never had a Valentine. Forever alone much? Yeah. Why can’t I just have one year where I have a boyfriend and things are going right. Why can’t just ONE guy stay with me and not leave me for some other girl? I’m seriously starting to think there is just something about me that drives people away. I just want to be happy on Valentine’s day, get some roses and chocolate and a kiss. That’s all. Hell, I’d be happy with a homemade card and a kiss. I just want to be in love. Or at least be happy. Oh well.
(Source: al1ve)
(Source: stayal1ve)
I think it’s safe to say I’m lonely, really lonely at that. I really don’t even know what to do with myself. I feel like the days just pass me by and nothings changing except time. I’m getting older and older, and yet I’m not happy with my life. Every day of my life feels like a waste because I’m not doing anything that makes me happy. And that’s what everyone wants, right? To be happy? People always say “If you’re not happy, change it”. Well, it’s not that easy. I don’t know why I don’t find enjoyment in much of anything. I don’t know why I always look sad. I guess I’m just tired of being alone. It’s like there’s this big hole inside of me that needs to be filled up. I really want someone to come sweep me off my feet and teach me to be happy again. I want someone to come sweep me off my feet and teach me what love is. This blank state of emotional nothingness I’m falling into scares me.
(Source: stayal1ve)
