News flash. You can’t. You’re going to stay or go. You can’t decide to be friends with me and then ignore me the next day. You can’t come in and stay awhile just to just leave with no reason. You can’t tell me hurtful things, and expect immediate forgiveness. You can’t. Yes, I miss you. And yes, I hate that I do. But how am I ever going to learn to stand up for myself if I keep letting people who hurt me come and go as they please. I hate feeling this conflicted. I hate feeling used. I hate giving someone my all, and it not being enough. I hate being left. I hate getting attached.
(Source: stayal1ve)
(Source: stayal1ve)
I think it’s safe to say I’m lonely, really lonely at that. I really don’t even know what to do with myself. I feel like the days just pass me by and nothings changing except time. I’m getting older and older, and yet I’m not happy with my life. Every day of my life feels like a waste because I’m not doing anything that makes me happy. And that’s what everyone wants, right? To be happy? People always say “If you’re not happy, change it”. Well, it’s not that easy. I don’t know why I don’t find enjoyment in much of anything. I don’t know why I always look sad. I guess I’m just tired of being alone. It’s like there’s this big hole inside of me that needs to be filled up. I really want someone to come sweep me off my feet and teach me to be happy again. I want someone to come sweep me off my feet and teach me what love is. This blank state of emotional nothingness I’m falling into scares me.
(Source: stayal1ve)
Do you think they wanted to be born like that? Do you think it was their choice to be born different that everybody else. Do you think they asked for a life long battle of trying to keep up with all their peers?
My brother has autism (aspergers syndrome), mood disorder nos (not otherwise specified), and adhd (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder). I know some of you are wondering what all these means. Aspergers is the high-functioning part of the autistic spectrum. With the mood disorder nos, it means he doesn’t quite fit a certain mood disorder. He shows signs of depression. And adhd, is common, but for those who don’t know, it just means you show difficulty concentrating and signs of hyper-active behavior. I feel blessed that my brother is high-functioning. But a downside to that is, he knows he’s different. His brain is able to comprehend that he is different from everyone else. I’ve seen this little boy break down and cry because he isn’t able to fit in with the other children. I’ve heard all the names he has been labeled as: ‘stupid’, ‘dumb’, ‘freak’, ‘retard’, ‘special’, ‘slow’, etc. It’s all broke my heart to pieces. You can’t tell that he has any of these disorders just by a glance, he’s a cute little boy with big baby blue eyes and curly brown hair. You wouldn’t think anything about him is any different from everyone else until you talk to him and start interacting. He’s not the best at being around people, his mind just doesn’t function like everyone else. He wants to be like you and me, and he tries his best not to draw attention to himself but that hasn’t stopped anybody from labeling him as ‘different’ and discarding him as a friend.
If they would give him a chance and get to know him, they’d find out that he’s one of the most kind-hearted, generous, loving person they could ever meet. He’d give you everything he has, just to place a smile on your face. If someone makes you upset, and you’re crying, he’ll give you a hug and ask you “What’s wrong?”. He may not be able to relate with you on your academic level, the level you process things, the level that you communicate at, but he can relate with you emotionally and he’ll love you with all he has.
Like I said from looking at him you’d never be able to tell. But next time you’re picking on the boy that’s playing gameboy/nintendo ds/etc. at break/recess. The kid that’s sitting alone by himself. The kid that’s not doing the same thing as everyone else. Please don’t single them out and make fun of them. You don’t realize all they may go through. You’re really hurting yourself from a true friend when you label people before you give them a chance.
I’m just writing this to remind you guys to always be open-minded, friendly, kind, sociable to everyone. Please give kids that aren’t exactly like you a chance. Everyone deserves a chance, right? Doesn’t everyone deserve a friend?
(Source: stayal1ve)
